Yep, I bet you all knew I just couldn't stay away.
So how's life you may be wondering?
It's better.
I've just begun what I like to call my "rise from the ashes." After crashing my best friends car, my gpa falling only slightly but enough to make me want to punch something, the tension between my current love interest aka boyfriend dying down, and just having the worst semester that can ever be even imaginable, things are definitely starting to look up. I didn't think I could get to this point. That I COULD be happy again and actually be able to walk into a room with my head held high. That I COULD find a way to be okay with what I have done, what has happened, and what mistakes I can't take back. And although it's been rough to say the least, I am getting better. I have things to distract me and put my whole heart into. You can only learn from your mistakes, and I don't think I would be the same person right now had I not been a complete tard.
SO on to these new goals and things to accomplish in 2011, which I know you are all dying to know.
Numbero uno, and probably the most significant at least to me, I'm going to run a half marathon. I would say that I want to run a marathon but first I need to see if I can survive half of it. And besides, I am kind of young to get a place in a marathon (as in if I try to run for the Chicago Marathon, I probably won't be old enough).
Number Two. I'm gonna try to stop being so negative all the time. Life is truly too short to waste on being sad, upset, stressed or any of that. I am going to try and stop complaining, whining, and all these negative qualities that keep me from being the best me. I know it's going to be hard but I have to be vigilant if I want results.
Number Three. I will smile more. I need to work on my tension and just relax and eventually this will be what people know me for.
Number Four. I am going to try to be nice to everyone I meet. So often I get behind these ideas and just forget to actually get to KNOW the person before judging them. I'm not going to bad talk anyone, well I will try and I will give people a chance before deciding if they are worth my time.
Number Five. I will get my GPA up again. Even if that means restless nights.
Number Six. I will improve on my performing skills.
Number Seven. I won't sorry for doing things that make me happy, even if they make others not so happy.
Number Eight. I will be happy with the way I look and be CONFIDENT.
Number Nine. I will read 100 books.
I know it seems like a lot, but hey someone's got to dream big. I hope this gets you to think of what you want to accomplish this year and no it is never to late to make some resolutions of your own.
